my birthday
Notice there was no post on my birthday? It was pretty unremarkable. I didn't tell my students (deliberately) because I didn't want to deal with the litany of "that's gotta be the best birthday ever!" that I always get.
It never is. If I hope for anything good to happen, I'm always bitterly disappointed, so I'm working toward making it a non-event in future years.
My sister sent me a red rose and a balloon. :)
Mom sent me a card with $20 in it a couple days before. I don't understand that. She can't afford it and I don't need it. It makes me feel extremely guilty to take it.
Because I went over to my sister's house that night to watch a movie with them (and had a couple pieces of pizza), I missed Dad dropping by. He stuck a sweet card in my door, and I found it when I got home.
My brother gave me a glass from the Dollar Tree (LOL) that's pretty much plastered with our last name. I guess he forgot that I'd been with him when we saw those glasses.
My sister's younger son picked out a card from him and his brother. It was a Happy Bunny card that reads "Everybody is beautiful on the inside. If you think bones and guts are beautiful, that is." Oh, that made me laugh SO hard!! He knows how much I love Happy Bunny.
Other than that, it was much like any other day. I went to the coffee shop and sat there for about a hour, but the coffee guy got out of there pretty fast when I came in. Given his lukewarm responses to me in person and via email, I'm pretty sure he not only isn't interested, but probably dislikes me as well. I suppose I shouldn't care what he thinks for this reason, but I guess that I'll follow the old rule "Speak only when you're spoken to." I can't possibly have any influence over him that would be beneficial to me, anyway. Any effort I put forth for this now is just wasted.
Looking back, I never truly expected to be the one that nobody wanted. I thought surely there was someone out there for me. I've seen less attractive, less likeable people with a lot less to offer finding someone who would love them, so logic whispered to me that I was okay and there had to be someone for me too.
I really don't believe that anymore. As a matter of fact, I'll bet that if I had found someone, he'd have cheated on me and divorced me anyway.
Supposedly we're going to have a small ice storm tonight. I hope we have one and I'm out of school tomorrow, because it's 12:40 am and it snuck up on me.
It never is. If I hope for anything good to happen, I'm always bitterly disappointed, so I'm working toward making it a non-event in future years.
My sister sent me a red rose and a balloon. :)
Mom sent me a card with $20 in it a couple days before. I don't understand that. She can't afford it and I don't need it. It makes me feel extremely guilty to take it.
Because I went over to my sister's house that night to watch a movie with them (and had a couple pieces of pizza), I missed Dad dropping by. He stuck a sweet card in my door, and I found it when I got home.
My brother gave me a glass from the Dollar Tree (LOL) that's pretty much plastered with our last name. I guess he forgot that I'd been with him when we saw those glasses.
My sister's younger son picked out a card from him and his brother. It was a Happy Bunny card that reads "Everybody is beautiful on the inside. If you think bones and guts are beautiful, that is." Oh, that made me laugh SO hard!! He knows how much I love Happy Bunny.
Other than that, it was much like any other day. I went to the coffee shop and sat there for about a hour, but the coffee guy got out of there pretty fast when I came in. Given his lukewarm responses to me in person and via email, I'm pretty sure he not only isn't interested, but probably dislikes me as well. I suppose I shouldn't care what he thinks for this reason, but I guess that I'll follow the old rule "Speak only when you're spoken to." I can't possibly have any influence over him that would be beneficial to me, anyway. Any effort I put forth for this now is just wasted.
Looking back, I never truly expected to be the one that nobody wanted. I thought surely there was someone out there for me. I've seen less attractive, less likeable people with a lot less to offer finding someone who would love them, so logic whispered to me that I was okay and there had to be someone for me too.
I really don't believe that anymore. As a matter of fact, I'll bet that if I had found someone, he'd have cheated on me and divorced me anyway.
Supposedly we're going to have a small ice storm tonight. I hope we have one and I'm out of school tomorrow, because it's 12:40 am and it snuck up on me.
posted by Me at 12:27 AM
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