Okay, he's a jerk

He deleted my last two emails without reading them, so I'm going to throw him into that extremely overpopulated category of men who are jerks. At least he could have said something, so now I feel really stupid. Right now I just feel kind of sad. Embarrassment hasn't quite set in. There's a little demon inside of me saying that I should start going out there to do my writing and never say a word to him. I could even be rude like him and wait for him to speak, then ignore him. Delete. Ha.

Actually, I don't feel like laughing about it. I feel like it's some kind of judgment about me and maybe I should just get the message and live with it. Okay, I get it now.

I really don't feel like doing much more than curling up on my bed and crying, but I'm trapped with my sister's family on vacation in St. Louis, so I have to keep it to myself. I know what I'm going to do though. Stop wishing that things in my life could be different.